Celebrating Bye Bye 09~Hello 2010

Plexi Glass, Phone Recievers and Miracles

No cell phones no cameras aloud...locker to house them while inside
Step through the metal detector
Ask for directions
Fill out pink appointment slip
Stand in line
Show ID and pink slip
Wait for clearance
Oops the jail is in lock down...sorry we can not tell you when it will be unlocked
Cold waiting area with families of other inmates...most are regulars here...one, like me is a first timer
Children playing with toys from back packs...I want to see daddy now
An hour later doors open
Show more ID
Filthy Plexiglas window station with black old style phone receiver
Slather with Purel
Wait
Batch of inmates escorted in...I know no one
Second batch marches in...still no familiar faces
I wish he knew I was coming
Third batch...there he is...here he comes
Sweet expressions of gaping distance yet closeness
Small talk first
Frustration and Denial...still
Whats that?...you mention God...your reading scripture?
You've never seen "The Sound of Music"...but I watched it every year
Suddenly...a recollection never had...we have yet to watch a movie or tv show together
I sing to him..."rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens..."
We laugh
Then he asks..."How is Dad?"
Here it comes again...that look of broken hearted of shame
I whisper with tears in my eyes "you are loved...God is here"
We say our goodbyes
Ferry ride home
Night has fallen parking lot dark
Turn radio on
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By Selah~  Unredeemed

The cruelest world
The coldest heart
The deepest wound
The endless dark
The lonely ache
The burning tears
The bitter nights
The wasted years

Life breaks and falls apart
But we know these are
Places where grace is soon to be so amazing
It may be unfulfilled
It may be unrestored
But when anything that's shattered is laid before the Lord
Just watch and see
It will not be unredeemed

For every choice that led to shame
And all the love that never came
For every vow that someone broke
And every lie that gave up hope
We live in the shadow of the fall
But the cross says these are all
Places where grace is soon to be so amazing
It may be unfulfilled
It may be unrestored
But when anything that's shattered is laid before the Lord
Just watch and see
It will not be unredeemed

Places where grace is soon to be so amazing
It may be unfulfilled
It may be unrestored
But you never know the miracle the Father has in store
Just watch and see
It will not be
Just watch and see
It will not be unredeemed
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Not Even A Mouse

Tis the night before, the night before Christmas, and all through the house, not a snap shot is stirring, not even a Cyber-Shot.

December Baby's Declaration Ammendment

I think it has been about ten years now...ten years since this crazy December birthday girl made a birthday switch request.

"I would like to move my birthday please!" "I would like it to be May 15th please!".

It is with great excitement that I, hear and now, in public and in sound mind, declare that,

my birthday be officially moved back to it's originalness...ie December 15th.

Come on...really people...if a girl can move her birthday, she can surely move it back!!

In honor of this declaration I share with you photos of me at the birhtday party my step mother lovingly threw for me in 2004. I adore the glitter photo frame holding my 3rd grade school head shot.

Happy New But Original Birthdate Upcoming Too ME!!!!

It is a cold December night...I shall break my blog silence with this.

"Character isn't inherited. One builds it daily by the way one thinks and acts, thought by thought, action by action. If one lets fear or hate or anger take possession of the mind, they become self-forged chains."

~Author Unknown~